my roommate and i were talking about how it takes so much more energy to be depressed than to just be chill.

and that happiness is not an objective like a better job or a better body or a better significant other. sure, all those things may amplify your state of happiness but they can’t make you happy unless you already have a foundation.

and i think when you realize that those things will not necessarily make you happy that it’s alot easier to appreciate little things. like omigod i saw my neighbor saying goodbye to her 2 year old son this morning and it was so freaking sweet i couldn’t stop staring like a creepy person!please don’t put me on amber alert!

not that i am the poster child of happiness and optimism–hell, i almost killed someone in the buffet line today. some woman accused me of cutting her and i was like bitch, you’re taking too long!– anyway, where was i? oh,yes, being soooo happy!

anyhoo, i guess my bro’s visit made me re-evaluate what it takes to pull yourself out of a depression. i think that if you stop taking yourself and your life so seriously, you will see that there is so much more fun to be had. god is laughing with you not at you! although, when i fell flat on my ass at the gym the other day im pretty sure that god, along with all the other gym patrons, was laughing at me.

you should be grateful for the things you have in your life. sure, you may hate your 9-5 job but if you didn’t have it then you wouldn’t be able to appreciate things like happy hour!!! and how awesome is happy hour???

i think i am still feeling the effects of my runner’s high.

happy friday.