Tue 6 Mar 2007
you don’t see what i see
Posted by thejinius under dating
A good friend of mine recently broke up with her boyfriend and as I was trying to console her she asked me, “Do you think I’ll ever meet anyone as good as him?” I said, “Duh. Of course you will!” She asked, “Do you think he’ll meet someone better than me?” I said, “Duh. Of course he won’t!”
I think it’s interesting that what’s really behind those questions is the thought “Am I still good enough?” And if you know my friend then you will know that not only is she good enough but she surpasses the standard for what’s good. She’s gorgeous, brilliant, getting her masters at an ivy leagueg school, humble, every guy I know has had a school boy’s crush on her at some point, and she can break dance better than anyone I know and the most insane thing is that she is oblivious to her virtues–which is part of her charm. If she were aware of her own awesomeness then she’d be completely intimidating and frightening and I would have to shoot her.
But as I was trying to articulate how wonderful she is and that she’ll get over this break up, I realized that I was the worst person to offer guidance because I couldn’t even take my own advice to heart.
I mentioned in my last post that my guy friend was giving me some post break up words of encouragement and listing the reasons of why I’m a good catch and my initial reaction was, “Well, he has to say those things because he’s my friend.” But then I thought about the converse. Maybe he is my friend because I am those things.
It has taken a really long time to reach the point of saying this, and I’m actually gettting a little emotional just typing it out…but maybe, despite my infinite flaws, I am a good catch after all.
I may not be gorgeous or brilliant or know how to cook a steak without burning it or remember to clean my room all the time. And sometimes I say things without thinking and I can’t hold my liquor and have even gotten lost trying to find my apartment after a night of drinking. But I think that the people who take the time to see beyond that will find that maybe there is something there that’s worth sticking around for.
And it’s the biggest cliche ever but I’m starting to realize that you can’t love someone or let someone love you until you love yourself first.
Okay, feel free to puke a little in your mouth right now.
So I say this to my friend: You may not find someone just like your ex but you’ll meet someone different. Unexpected. It’s always the ones who catch you off guard that catch your heart. And he’ll be the one who sees what I see. And I hope you will see that too.
*Or you can just go with the tried and true remedy: The best way to get over someone is to get under someone new. I’m copywriting that.

March 6th, 2007 at 8:37 pm
its true, the best way to get over an ex is to book yourself into a spa for a day, all kinds of treatments, pedi, mani, and get a different hair cut — we keep talking about that, but i guess if it doesnt work on the first try, do it again!
March 6th, 2007 at 11:48 pm
whether it’s cliche or not, you really do need to like/love yourself first. it’s actually a really infuriating realization because then you get mad at yourself for not understanding it sooner. i mean i’m a smart confident girl and i mean people have been telling me that my whole life, and yet still it took me a really long time to catch on. i feel like an idiot for not internalizing it sooner and what’s more annoying is coming to the realization is still only half the battle. i still have to make myself believe it.
March 6th, 2007 at 11:53 pm
i think convincing a friend is the best way to convince yourself. then everybody wins.
March 7th, 2007 at 4:36 am
I never thought about it that way round. “Maybe he’s my friend because I am those things”
Everyone needs to give people a chance I think, because I know I don’t make a great first impression. But my 3rd and 4th are the bomb.
I didn’t puke. This is one cliche I wholeheartedly believe in.